#trauma tings

[corpseprxnce]

Words cannot express how much I hate people touching me (in literally any way) unless they've asked first or I've initiate the contact. Even family.

[sysig]

Go play pretend on your own (Patreon)

[butchjess]

when you whenen when you think about how lorelai has the ability to understand jess in a way nobody else really can and has moments of extreme compassion and empathy for him that leak through her general lens of viewing jess as a lost cause/troublemaker/devil incarnate which is borne out of her insecurity around her most valued relationships and the way jess both in-universe and from a meta standpoint exists to not only have incredibly important relationships with rory and luke both but also to cause conflict between lorelai and luke/lorelai and rory because of it. but in these moments she has to instead confront the fact that he is just a kid and he’s having a hard time. he can’t talk because its hard for him to talk bc its hard for HER to talk (i don’t know how to tell you things, mom) he knows bc SHE would have known (i don’t know, kid, but this whole thing reeks of emily). and well, she is very petty and would never say this/defend him to his face bc when she tried to oprah him he immediately lashed out and read her so well that she is never letting that grudge go ever until they actually talk about it and theyre never going to unless you held them at gunpoint and even then they both would probably prefer to die than actually talk about their feelings and why they reacted the way they did. also it is just a natural reaction i think to be faced w your younger self and immediately try to strangle them. like lorelai is not doing that treat yourself w the kindness that u would to ur own child thing no she is biting and scratching and killing immediately. she would SAY she’d love to treat her younger self w the kindness she was never given but honestly after Teen Lorelai gives her one single bitchy knowing comment she would be a hater forever and that is real as hell to me..

[marginal-notes]

Okay, so. No one needs to hear me out on this. I’m just saying. One day I’m going to crack and heave out all my biting commentary about Naruto gender and clan and lineage politics through the lens of an always-a-different-sex Kakashi fic or outline, and it’s just going to… exist… out there.

No one else gets changed, it’s just Kakashi, and it’s going to be a nightmare from start to finish that’s definitely also heavily tinged by my personal perspective on being agender aro ace.

[importantcherryblossommentality]

I remember when I was little and my parents would talk in front of me about how I don't deserve food and would refuse 2 get me anything specifically

the hunger pangs used to hit so bad now I'm used to them n don't really need to eat which actually bothers them more :3 "why aren't u accepting my food!!" hmm!

[thefabelmans2022]

maybe in a way connor having the loony cake with him on the boat at the wedding kinda means a part of his mother was there with him on his wedding day

[pttucker]

Yoo Joonghyuk watched our companions behind me. "The one who can save the world… it might be you, not me." Lee Hyunsung, Lee Jihye, Shin Yoosung, Lee Seolhwa… There was deep regret in Yoo Joonghyuk's eyes as he gazed at every single person. I seemed to know what he was thinking. 「 There have never been so many people who made it to here. And maybe it won't happen again in the future. 」

tfw you not only make the protagonist care about you, you make him believe in you

tfw you give him hope that maybe this is the world that'll see the end of the scenarios

tfw you've reminded him, time and time again, that maybe saving as many people as possible isn't just an unintended side effect but the main goal and now he's looking around at all the people you've managed to bring this far

tfw this is results in the absolute last thing you could ever want

[memorydragon]

Po Yun characters rated by swag

Yan Xie: 0/10 He thinks he's a natural 20, but actually has none. As one of the characters said, "Don't listen to him. He's a dumbass." This is magnified after cohabitation with Jiang Ting, because he becomes a domesticated dumbass who is completely whipped. The narrative goes on about how he's a stereotypical alpha male, but this man can't survive a blind date to save his life. The author very correctly decided criminal investigators have no swag at all and wrote a novel about it. He grows on you like a fungus, but still has zero swag. That said, do not get in a fight with him. He will win.

Jiang Ting: Could have swag. He's intelligent, able to analyze details in moments, and elegant. Then he starts to eat and any swag he might have had evaporates. He was married to his work and highly stressed and traumatized from being a triple agent and it shows. 3/10, though I'm tempted to bump it to four for the way he straight up murders both Yan Xie and Bu Chonghua via text message. Professor Jiang is growing into swag by virtue of finally having free time and accepting his moronsexuality in the second book. That might be generous though considering he's still terrorized by his mother-in-law. I adore him, but his swag will always be low.

Jin Jie: He's a professional assassin and it shows. That said, he's also a professional lackey. 6/10, defeated by the protag plot halo, and it was honestly hilarious how Jiang Ting was constantly throwing him under the bus.

Qin Chuan: *extremely grudgingly* He has swag. That said, I'm 100% with Jiang Ting on this. Do not listen to Yan Xie. He has swag, but he's also a little bitch (no sexual connotation on this phrase btw, that's entirely directed at his personality). 7/10, someone please punch him in the face.

Wen Shao: Now here we have a man with swag. He oozes swag that Yan Xie wishes he had. He has opinions on ballet, plays Lana Del Ray songs on the violin like an emo child, and murders teenagers to recreate an important childhood memory with Jiang Ting. He grew up a drug lord with money and poker card code names, and kisses the bloody knuckles of his Red Queen reverently. 12/10, probably would be 14 if the manhua had been able to continue and we got more of him with long hair.

Han Xiaomei: Our favorite baby intern has absolutely no swag. She's an intern at the criminal investigation unit. She's the lowest on the totem pole, barely showers and sleeps when there's a case just like the rest of the team, and cowers when superiors yell at her. I watched her grow up to a young police woman who could sass back at Yan Xie in the final arc with tears in my eyes. The character growth was incredibly moving. 1/10, because she still has no swag.

Yang Mei: In front of Jiang Ting, she is a meek and breedable. When Jiang Ting isn't looking at her, she's a police informant who runs her own ktv, is perfectly put together and her wardrobe costs more than a cop could make in their career. She has swag. She can and will bitch Yan Xie out, fight like a hell cat, save her love rival's life (only because it was Jiang Ting asking though, otherwise she'd still probably save Yan Xie, but she'd never let him forget it), and turn the love rival into the greatest brotp of the novel. 9/10, because Jiang Ting canonly swears to never take both her and Yan Xie on errands together again. Unfortunately for her, no amount of swag will make the man she's in love with less gay or moronosexual.

Ma Xiang: Good at his job, comfortable in his masculinity. Is willing to be gay for 10 minutes if Yan Xie shares his dinner. No real swag on his own, but he's a fun comedic aside most times. 1/10, because he throws up at gruesome murder scenes and thought a curling iron was a sex toy.

Bu Chonghua: Now here we finally have a main protagonist with swag. Someone had to have swag in the novel, and he pulls it off. As Yan Xie's straight-laced little cousin, he's got a temper and authority to match. He may be a trauma kitten, but he is very good at his job and earned his position. He will literally walk through fire and water to show his devotion to Wu Yu. 6/10, because he's also a menace (absolutely related to Yan Xie, no doubt) and a bit bitchy at times. I love him, your honor.

Wu Yu: here's where the swag gets complicated. As Wu Yu, he is meek and mild mannered, no ambition, and very little confidence. This trauma kitten has no swag. He throws up at the mere taste of meat. He just wants to earn enough money to run away from life and never be bothered again. He loves reading and just wants books. People want to feed him, he looks that pathetic. 0/10 but he gets a point or two when he enters the illegal boxing ring for extra money.

As Painter, his swag jumps to 7/10. He's in prison, he's inflitrating various drug rings, he's the pretty boy, and if you try to take advantage he will cut your arm off with a machete. He has no nickname, just a number. Do not cross him. Jin Jie even calls him ge.

As REDACTED, this trauma kitten will end you. He will fight you with his bare hands and tear you apart. He can only be calmed and turned back into Wu Yu by a person he has marked as 'safe'. If you see him jump from any story higher than one, you're not the one who will survive the encounter. When not in murder form, he pretends to be slow and meek. He's a lackey, and he just wants to live someplace poppies don't grow. Yes, I'm Normal about that. 4/10, please just wrap this trauma kitten up in a blanket and feed him fish and chocolates.

Shark: After my glowing review of the first book's main villain, you would think Shark has swag. He has negative swag, however. He's a crypto bro who wants to drag Painter into life and death situations but won't commit to the homoerotism of it. The fact his web handle is shark and his dark web site is the Mariana trench is an insult to both. He acts cool and edgy but nothing can change the fact he'd be all over nfts if the book was written today. -5/10, he's got absolutely nothing on the King of Spades.

Liao Gang: like, he tries. He's decent at his job, but he's not amazing. Will need Wu Yu to back him up to solve major cases, which stresses Wu Yu out because that means he has to speak up. 1/10

Meng Zheng: This is a woman with brass balls. She's the only female police officer in the unit, is late 30s, early 40s, and is called their police beauty because she's the only one. Also, because she would totally win if you say she looks over thirty and she decides to take you out. 7/10, very valid for wanting to be a honey pot because the police would fund her looking sexy, even if she twists her ankle because she hasn't worn heels since before she was pregnant. She's a milf and will forcibly drag poor interns to her level.

Song Hui: No swag. She's interning because of her crush and is a terrified kitten. She just wants to marry rich and be cute. Meng-jie forces feminism on her. After REDACTED, she grows to 1/10 because she doesn't want to let Meng-jie down. Saves the protags, the entire operation, and sees at the blood on her hands that has already been washed away. Great character development, but currently still no swag. She might get some eventually, because she has potential, which, honestly, is more than Han Xiaomei can say.

Song Ping: He's the older gen cop who you still don't want to mess with. Not related to Bu Chonghua by blood, but you can tell exactly who raised the trauma kitten after his parents were killed. 8/10, though you won't know why until the very end.

Lin Zheng: So weirdly, he probably has swag in his usual work. Considering 90% of the time we see him is with Wu Yu, however, he has none. He thinks Painter killed his friend and all he did was complain to the higher ups about it. 2/10, if he'd been a bit more proactive half of his plot line could have been avoided. Also, Jiang Ting says he has Chuan vibes, which makes me want to punch him in the face on principle. I trust Jiang Ting's judgment.

Cai Lin: Fills the same comedic relief in Tun Hai as Ma Xiang did in Po Yun. We love him, but 1/10, he's terrified of maggots and eats ice cream that's from the forensic department freezer.

And finally, the old and beautiful Zeng Cui Cui: If you couldn't tell by her title, Mother Yan has swag. When she feels threatened by Wu Yu's swag, her response is to bling like no one has blinged before and terrifies him with how much money she spent. Jiang Ting knows better than to argue with her. She bought "A Study of the Legal Aspects of Gay Marriage" after her son turned 30 and still couldn't find a girl willing to marry him. She also locked Bu Chonghua out and essentially kidnapped Wu Yu in the back of her trunk when she thought Wu Yu was being forced into the relationship. 10/10, because she sends her sons-in-laws long underwear and they better wear it in the winter or they will regret it.

[merriecat]

spend 12 hours with family without becoming deeply depressed challenge (EPIC FAIL) (PWNED) (CRYBABY GETS REKT) (HARD MODE: You Are Everyone's Mother) (CPTSD Speedrun)

[sailoragere]

I hope it's alright for me to give this addition. (The literal wall of text via tags was not looking good...) I'm not always very good at articulating myself or organizing my thoughts so please bear with me.

I speculate at least half of this has to do with internalized Ableism in the community and Ableism in general.

"We gotta ask ourselves if we're uncomfortable with the thought/presentation of an adult regressing?" or "the thought of an adult who isn't regressed doing childlike things or acting childlike?," Yes. Cause of Ableism. Sometimes internalized Ableism.

Since there are many regressors with disabilities in addition, such as autistics and those who have intellectual or physical disabilities, too. I am one of those regressors myself. Can't forget those who are plural/non-singlet (with or without child/little alters) either. All this while having a love or tendency for liking “childish things” or acting/being childish/childlike.

Even down to often having “child's” interests such as toys, stuffed animals and cartoon shows. No matter what we do or what makes us happy, it inevitably attracts derision and bullying from others. Especially ppl from “outside” agere spaces.

It is bound to make one feel insecure, and maybe even put down regressors who are “different” than them in any way.

A variety of disabled regressors absolutely deserve more representation around here as well as regressors who don't, can't, or maybe just don't wanna picture themselves/others as physically small/little while regressing! That being said, this should never be an excuse to ridicule or “fakeclaim” regressors whether they do or do not feel the way as described in OP's post.

Should go both ways. No reason to pick on regressors whom express themselves/ their art subjects as “small, cutesy, innocent," either!! (That is not to say that this is what OP is doing at all /gen)

Cause that's unfair. These people are just coping differently, not "bad," much like you are. It's totally okay as long as it does no one any harm.

I do feel the reason regressors frequently create with a physically small persona/interpretation in mind is moreso because it helps quell their physical age discomfort and/or brainweird/trauma - rather than for simply comfort/self indulgence reasons.

Due to controversy surrounding the term, I am not gonna use 'age dysphoria' to describe this experience some regressors deal with. However, surely there must be a name for this feeling and sensation. (NOT tr@nsage either!!)

Overall, I believe all of these perspectives/interpretations could be true and coexist happily with one another. But first we must be willing to crack down on ableism to get there, and support each other. Thank you for considering my thoughts on this.

Agere community you guys need to draw more regressors or regressed characters regressing in their adult bodies I am. So serious. Sometimes I feel a disconnect having to imagine myself smaller or as a baby and sometimes I feel like I'm not imagining my regressed!f/os at all if I force myself to imagine them in a child's body.

I understand that most regressors draw like this to fully immerse themselves but at some point we gotta ask ourselves if it's also because we're uncomfortable at the thought of an adult regressing or maybe even the thought of an adult who isn't regressed doing childlike things or "acting like a child"?

[cinnamoanangels]

I seriously cannot believe they killed that child on arcane 😭😭😭

[vintageunknown]

sometimes when I'm mad at my mom, I want to send her a screenshot of leslou with the caption you and dad.

[ghost-tings]

me out here writing a oc fic thing of a college ice hockey team one of them has a kid the teams dysfunctional as fuck and they end up going to a doffrent dimension every night for 6-8 hours and there's the fucking crime family shit not to mention suicide crime family has a damn facility for these experiments on the other dimension man this team is going so much shit

[cluescorner]

What I like about this more than anything is that Juni Ba clearly KNOWS THAT THE LoA IS NOT JUST A FUCKING CULT! They are eco-terrorists first and foremost. It was formed by a man who has witnessed how humans ravage the earth and decided that the only solution was drastic population reduction (similar to how Poison Ivy is sometimes written). Their goal is to preserve the earth, the cult-ish stuff is secondary and imo mostly a result of Ra's demanding absolute loyalty from everyone (to the point of even trying to make his own daughter kill the man she loved), a means to an end (in order to ensure loyalty), and his own ego. So yeah, to say that they would HATE billionaires and the elites who hoard their wealth to further strip the world of its resources and pollute it in order to further fill their own pockets...is an understatement. I hate when people write them as ONLY an assassin cult as if that's the only thing there is to them. I hope that in the next issue we get to see more of the environmentalist side of the LoA, this line just gave me way too much hope lmao

[ennieasys]

This slushy is the only thing preventing me from commiting a homicide /s

[weirdqueernerd]

I'm so scared of doing something wrong I'll feel bad accidentally clicking the wrong option in a tumblr poll